written December 30th
Dear William,
Your arrival on this day was such a foreshadowing of your personality and what you would bring into our lives.
Although your due date was January 14th, Mom and Dad had decided that December 29th would be the perfect day for your arrival. I didn't want to have to return to school after the winter break and we wanted you to avoid having a birthday on Christmas or New Years. We didn't schedule an induction, we just hoped that you would cooperate with our desires. I had contractions all week leading up to our wishful thinking due date and admit that I couldn't have been more impatient. The evening of the 29th I went into my 38 week doctor's appointment and found out that due to high blood pressure I would need to be induced. I was dilated to a 4 before they even started the pitocin and once the pitocin started things went relatively fast. You were almost compliant to my wishes, arriving one hour into December 30th.
That's my boy. Compliant. Almost. Sweet and obedient. Mostly. Fulfilling my every dream in your way, not mine.
You have taught me to put you and the Lord in charge of my life because you know so much more and can do so much more for me.
What I often think is perfect turns out differently. You have redefined perfection for me.
This birthday has especially been a trial for all of us, as you have spent the last week unable to keep down food or liquids because of a harsh and persistent cough. The perfect birthday week that I had envisioned changed drastically as I struggled to get you healthy.
In the meantime, I found myself loving you beyond measure. As I reflected on your birth three years ago, my gratitude for your resilient body was overwhelming. The knowledge that you have what it takes to heal and to be your full self again was the ultimate comfort.
The night when you were born was perfect. It wasn't perfect because of the date you came or the plans I made. It was perfect because your chosen spirit was passed into my care by our Heavenly Father. You were given to me to teach me so much more than I could ever plan to teach myself. The challenges that you have brought into my life have helped me to develop humility and patience, kindness and endurance. The joys you have brought into my life have caused my heart to swell and my cup to run over.
Thank you, William. Thank you for putting up with your less than perfect mother. Thank you for your patience, humility, kindness, and endurance. Thank you for the past three years, William. I look forward to an eternity more.
Love,
Mom











